Hey everyone! Good news my life is back to normal. I once again am and single and don't give a crap. Yeah my boyfriend broke up with me cause well quiet frankly he's a dumbass. He's right though I am too good for him. He doesn't really deserve me.

Anyway, it's a bit of a shock to the system, but I'm going to be okay. I'm going to have to find out how I spend all my time before and do that again. Actually the plan really is to get hot and date as many guys as I can and tell him all about it. Okay that's probably not going to happen but a girl can dream. Which I dream way to much anyway.

So I wrote a long old letter to him about how I feel and crap. I don't know if I'll let him have it. I should, but it reminds me of the Friends episode where Rachael gives Ross that 20 page letter. He never reads it and ends up say yes to the she said in the letter. He has no idea what he is saying yes to and this ultimately gets him in more trouble. Anyway, for that reason I can almost expect him not to read it if I do give it to him.

Some more good news, I talked to a hottie in the elevator today. He works up on the top floor for the bank. I'm not to sure what he does, but I hope to run into him again. In hindsite, I should of given him my number, but that would mean that I would have to think more than I was. I was barely able to talk to him let alone think about giving him my number. With my luck he's married. I have the tendency to find married guys and once I know they are married, I know it's okay and we can be friends. That's it. I'm way more comfortable in situations with guys when I know there is no chance of anything happening.

Now since I'm spending more time at home, I have noticed a lack of internet connections. It may seem that I have dropped off the edge of the earth if I'm not posting much, which I haven't been anyway. I'm trying really. Well, I better go. It's about that time.

blueberi posted at 4:48 PM

Well, everything turned out to be fine on Monday. They were still moving things and they weren't by their phones. Anyway, I'm finally beginning to understand what I put my parents through when I didn't call and tell them where I was when I was suppose to be home.

Anyway, for as long as I can remember I've been cursed with a wild imagination. I like to think things over and run through every senario in my head. It keeps me occupied a lot and is the cause of many restless nights. I go over and over about what happened through the day and what might happen tomorrow. It's crazy I know, but I'm always thinking what if? Why not? you know what I mean.

So work has been busy. Up til now I've had no breaks really. I've been running around to all kinds of doctors as well. Today I saw a foot specialist and I'm going to get surgery on my big toes so that my nails don't go in anymore. So I'll be doing that in about a month. Yesterday I went to the dentist and as usual they told me I'm good, but I should really start to floss. Okay, yeah I probably should, but I'm lazy.

I recently bought an ab lounge. Of course I have a small apartment so where will I be keeping it you ask. So far it sits in the box at my bf's place. I bought it Monday night. Wednesday night we actually got it out of the car. I'm thinking tonight I might take it out of the box. And if it sucks like he thinks it might then he's got a new chair, granted it would probably be uncomfy, but at least that person who has to sit on it has a chair.

blueberi posted at 4:42 PM

Okay okay, I'm updating. I've been busy and right now I'm going crazy. I've been trying to get in touch with bf, but I've go no answers. He's suppose to be helping his sister move some stuff today. I tried calling her as well and I'v got nothing. I don't know what's going on and I don't think that they would ignore me. So I'm sitting wonder what could of happened.

I am the worst about this kind of stuff. I think oh no a car accident. Someone is sick and in the hospital. Their dad has got sicker. Someone got in a fight and is in jail. I don't know. Another DUI. God why am I cursed with thinking all this stuff. I just want to know what is happening. I've call all the numbers I have for them. I'm so tired. I should just go to bed, but I just sit here wondering. Damn.

Well, I'll post more later. Something fun or upbeat if I can.

blueberi posted at 10:53 PM

Been busy. Jen was down to visit me. Well, she really came to go to the Suns game on Saturday, visiting me was just a bonus. We ended up going to the game on Monday as well. She met the boyfriend on Saturday after the game. He was on his best behavior as he didn't want another one of my friends to hate him.

Her thoughts on the boyfriend is that he seemed nice, but that I could probably do better. Well, maybe. I don't know. I just know that I'm having fun. I think we are good for each other.

Anyway, I have a photo shoot today, tomorrow and saturday. I won't be getting much sleep. I'll be downing green tea like I'll never have another chance to drink it.

Today, I dropped jen off at the airport. I've been awake since 6 am. So far I've drank about 50 or 60 oz. of green tea. I'm completely wired. I feel like I could run a marathon, but I know I can't cause the whole not being able to breathe and run thing that I have going on. I'll be heading out to my photo shoot any minute now. I probably won't get home tonight until like 8 or 9. Then I have to be back out there at 5 am. Same goes for Saturday.

I better get going my car ain't going to drive itself. I wish it could though.

blueberi posted at 2:27 PM

Yeah so I haven't been writing much lately. I have a lot to say, but not a lot that I want to write on here. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow for a much needed check up and to receive on education on the finer things in life. Basically learn how to take care of myself.

I need to have a talk with the boyfriend. I already did a bit, but we need to talk more. He has no idea how much of a dick he was Saturday, cause he was so drunk he didn't remember anything. He paid royally for it Sunday as he was so hangover he barely made it through work. But he must learn he can't do that shit, especially when I'm introducing him to one of my best friends.

Saturday we ended up going to his club, which is damn cool looking as the interiors have been well designed, but the place is a freak show. These people are nasty. Anyway, that probably doesn't mean much for him. Oh god, what a mess. Then we went over to a friend's place, we continued to drink. I got pretty drunk. So drunk in fact that when the boy broke a wine glass on the floor, that i started laugh so hard I peed. I couldn't stop peeing and before we knew it I flooded the floor with my pee. Needless to say. I peed all over the boy and we couldn't move until the broken glass was cleaned up. But I wasn't drunk enough to forget what happened. I know everything that happened saturday and I've gone made.

My stupid cell phone didn't wake me up in time to go to weight watchers. So I ditched Onyx and I felt really bad about it. Especially cause my boyfriend was a dick to her and every one on Saturday. Nothing is going to make me miss Weight Watchers this week.

Well, since I'm going tobe late for work tomorrow. I've done a bit of work tonight to make up for it. And now I'm going to go see the boy and talk to him. Hopefully that goes okay. I wouldn't go over there, but I think these stuff I need to talk to him about in person. I guess I better get going. I'll talk to ya'll later

blueberi posted at 8:51 PM