Happy New Years Eve! I can't believe that 2005 is almost over.

2005 was a year of change, a year of disaters, a year of self doubt and hope. I graduated from college. The old blueberi was retired and a new blueberi was found. I got a job and was later told they didn't want to pay be anymore, so I had to quit.

But beyond my personal life. Things have also changed. New Orleans has ben washed away. A place I hoped to visit someday, but it may be years before I can visit the city. I wished I could help, but my poor college student budget doesn't allow it.

Then there is all the political problems and the slowing economy isn't helping. Somedays it feels as though maybe America is losing its position in the world. I once never thought about how my country was, but it seems that we are losing hold. That we may not be the land of opportunity anymore. I don't know.

I don't want to feel this way. I know we have it good. But layoffs worry me. Why can't companies do their figures right? Why are so many people in debt? Is is cause of the national debt? I don't know. I just want to be able to get a job and pay back what I borrowed. I wish life wasn't so much about money.

Oh yeah, I've been home for a while now. I managed to gain 2 lbs over my time here. I need to get back on track. Damn how could I let myself do that.

blueberi posted at 1:17 PM

So what I thought would be one of the best days ever turn out to be a bummer. I thought the day I graduated from college would be wonderful. But it wasn't. Maybe it was cause there was no ceremony. Maybe it was because of the huge build up for portfolio review and it's sudden end. Maybe it was cause my b-day was before it and I never got to celebrate either thing. Maybe because I wasn't able to share my success with my family while everyone else did.

I don't know what it was but now I must face the harsh reality that I must start my life, a life where I've spent tons of money and have yet to really do anything. Well, I've had one interview. During the interview, I broke my cheap necklace which probably made me look like an idiot. Anyway, I head home for about two weeks starting tomorrow. I'm going to try not to worry about anything, but I'm sure I won't be able to do that.

One thing I was right about graduating, I am extremely bored now. All I've done is shop and eat. Of course, I've been pretty good with my eating. I still manage to keep myself in control eventhough I want to sit down with a pint of Ben and Jerry's, I haven't done it.

So what am I going to do during what will probably be a long process to find a job? I might just update this here bloggy blog's layout and comment system as well as the counter. I need to know if anyone is reading this thing cause I'm about ready to throw in the towel on this. But I do like typing and stuff. Somedays, I wonder if I shouldn't of been a writer, but I don't have the best grammar and I don't really have anything to say.

I guess I'm going to go ponder that some more, pack my stuff, and call a friend. Until next time have fun.

blueberi posted at 4:21 PM

Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! I look like a monkey and I smell like one too. Okay no i don't look like a monkey and no I don't smell like one either, but I thought it was funny.

So for my B-day, graduation, and Christmas, Onyx, got me all dolled up. She took me to Alta and paid to have my hair highlighted and cut. While I was there I got my eyebrows waxed, so know I'm not a monkey anymore. It thought that my hair was a lot different, but so far only my roomie noticed the difference. But I guess everyone else is dumb.

My friend, Jen, got me a subscription to an online mag. for designers. I'm sure I'm going to find a bunch of interesting tips so I might get even better than I am.

Also for my b-day, I bought myself the movie "the 40 year old virgin". I love that movie. It is so funny.

Then my parents have given money to go to dinner on the actually day, which is today, the 15th that is. So Onyx, her hubby and me are going to dinner. We can't celebrate too much cause Friday I have to get up early for portfolio review. Which basically means I'm graduating, but there is no ceremony just portfolio review.

Anyway, I got home around 1 am, which is why I"m still awake and typing this. I went to a holiday party at Ah-so, a japanese food place where they cook the food in front of you. It was delicious. Then we went to see Chronicles of Narnia. It was pretty good.

Well, I guess that is all for me. I need to get to bed. Laters.

blueberi posted at 1:55 AM

Just finished my last class ever. Yippie! Okay so it may not before ever, but I don't see myself going back to school anytime soon. Now all I have to do is check out on Monday and portfolio review next Friday and I'm out of here. Well, sorta. I'm done with school.

But, I don't actually get to leave Phoenix, until the 22nd and I'm going to keep my apartment 'til the end of January. If I don't find a job by then I'll probably be heading home. Dad said that someone back there might hire me. But I don't want to end up in rural montana. I'm okay with the possiblity of Great Falls, Bozeman, Billings, Missoula, or even Helena, but not Cut Bank or Vailer or any of the rest of the little towns.

Plus, I don't know if I could go back at all. I'd miss all the wonderful new restaurants I've been introduced to. :( Pei Wei, Baja Fresh, Chipotle, Samauri Sams (okay I think they have that in Bozeman), Panda Express. I don't know what I would do without these places.

Anyway, to change the topic I've recently got the new Weezer cd "Make Believe" and I love it, but the most favorite song (at least this week) is number 11, "Freak me out". I don't know why but I love it. Okay so here are the lyrics. I think it is that damn chorus. I just keeps playing in my head.

City streets at night
can be so intimidating (this line I don't remember hearing)
I'm not the toughest guy
I gotta keep my eyes open
You came out of nowhere

Man you really freak me out
I'm so afraid of you.
And when I lose my cool
I don't know what to do
I know you don't mean no harm
You're just doing your thing
But man, you really freak me out

Did i hurt you? Are you okay?
Can I buy you a drink?
Oh, what's the world coming to?
You came out of nowhere

I'm going to try to
improve my manners
Everyone, yes everyone
is my friend

Well, I think I might take a nap and hope that I'll do something laters.

blueberi posted at 4:43 PM

Yippie, my boards passed inspection tonight. I was actually praised for my wonderful cutting skills. Teacher actually told students they pay me or my friend, well call him "S", to cut their boards. HaHa, I am a master of board cutting and I only have a few scars from the exacto. So I almost chopped the thumb off and scratched my side and cut my pinky, but over all I am still intack.

Anyway, Sounds like I don't need to redo anything but there are a few things that bug me so I might redo them anyway. For instance on of my prints has a smudge on it. Teacher didn't notice, but it bugged me. Then there is my cd package that bugs me cause of the construction of it is difficult to make nice, but teacher said it was fine. Then there is my manual that was bond wrong. I'm thinking it would be nice to redo that. Then, I'm going to do a few candy bars which will total 5. that shouldn't take too long.

Teacher actually asked me if I was on drugs or if i was psycho for cutting 52 cards. That's right I made a deck of cards and cut them by hand and they were not rectanglar. They were monkey head shaped. Anyway, I didn't cut all of the. Onyx helped me cut some of them. Anyway, the deck 'o cards passed for portfolio review. Yippie! I just shouldn't let anyone open it cause a few of them aren't up to par on color.

So last night I helped, my friend, well call him "Florida", mount and cut his stuff for tonight. I actually ended up cutting all of them and doing half of the gluing. So to pay for my help he bought me a big bag of those Big M&Ms, which I shouldn't be eatting and he took me to eat at Maycayos, which he payed for with a gift card. I can understand that I guess cause he doesn't have much money now, but damn only dinner that only cost like $9. And he didn't really pay for it. "Florida" you need to get me another dinner dude.

I guess I should go now. I guess I need to go take care of my finances at school tomorrow. Then I go to classs and present and then go to class on Friday and present. Then I'm done. That's right done. Yippie. Okay seriously i'm gonna go now. Laters.

blueberi posted at 10:30 PM

So i've taken off my link to my portfolio site. I decided that having on here could get me in trouble since if you type in the name of my website in google you get both my portfolio site and this here blog. I don't want any potential employer to find this blog cause I actually want a job. So, if you want to see my site and you don't know the web address let me know.

On another note. Blackjack rocks! Last night my roommate and I went to the casino. We wondered a while and stared at the blackjack players dreaming of playing a game ourselves. The minimum bet was $5, so we decide to give in. I decided before hand I was only going to spend $30-$40.

So to make a long story short. I know the basic rules of Blackjack which proved to be enough knowledge to win myself $150, making a profit of $110. That's right i went with $40 and came home with $150. It was great and I had a lot of fun. Of course I didn't get to bed until like 3 am and I had to get up early for WW, but it was worth it and a good stress reliever.

Oh yeah I meant to talk about this sooner, but the other day when I was at school I was trying to explain my old ice pack, MR. BUMP. Noone understood what I was talking about. One of the guys in my class was like oh you mean the MR. MEN and LITTLE MISSes. I was like I don't know if that is what they are. So I looked it up and sure enough that was them. Check out this site if you don't remember them.

MR. MEN flash site

blueberi posted at 4:45 PM