Somehow part of my show "grey's anatomy" got recorded, which was wonderful. Anyway, right when it was getting to the good stuff my phone rang. Because everyone is sleeping or trying to, I'm like crap my phone is loud and I try to run to stop it. So I screwed up the show thing. I had paused it previously which only minutes earlier it said there was 30 mins. left and things seem fine. Then I paused it to go get the phone and after I got back from the phone it was recording a different channel and it was news or something. No I can't figure out how to get back to the show. Now I'm going to have to wait until next Sunday to see what happened.

So after this happened I decided to finish getting ready for bed. While in the bathroom, my phone rings again. Why does my phone ring when everyone is in bed but me? Actually, it is nice to have people call though. I wish people called more often cause I hate to use the phone. Anyway, the second call was my aunt, cause I called earlier about coming to stay or visit. I can't decide what to do. I think maybe I should just go visit for a bit and get a feel for things, while I wait to see if the jobs I interviewed for want me. I don't know.

Well anyway, ever since I graduated, I've been on an emotional rollercoaster. I have never wanted to cry so much before. I'll be talking to someone and then minutes later I'm about ready to burst into tears. It just happened tonight talking to my aunt. And early today talking to one of my roommates, Friday talking to my mom, I actually did cry. I hate this. Whenever it happens I just shut down and try to stop the tears from coming. Did I mention that I cried after graduation? The just kind of threw us to the wind. Saying see ya' later suckers. Maybe it is the uncertianty or the fact that I don't know what to do? (isn't that the same?) I don't know. Hell, I can't even answer when someone asks me what my hobbies are. I love to pretty much anything. Someone just has to ask. I'll try most things with in reason.

Okay well, I've got a book to finish, so that I can start in on my new book. Laters all.

blueberi posted at 10:19 PM