Okay so i've been thinking about this whole losing weight thing. I remember 20lbs. ago when I was 190. At that weight I was still wearing the same size clothes I am now. So how much will I actually have to lose to wear a smaller size. I don't know. I was hoping that when I got shoping the day or week before graduation (if I go), that I might be at least one size smaller. Well, probably not. I don't know. Anyway, I think I'm becoming obsessive about this, so I'm gonna talk about something else now.

I went to the movie "The Weather Man" on Sunday. Nicholas Cage was the lead and he was sad even though he really had things good. He'd made some bad chocies, but he really just wanted to be happy and part of a family. He worked a lot and his life was his job.

Somedays, I feel like I'm going to be like that, but I don't want my life to be my job. I want friends, family. I want it all. How exactly do we make room for everything? I think at some point you are either going for the more money or focused on family and friends. I don't know, but some how we have to learn how to balance everything. We have to give up a little for a little of something else.

I want to be the best I can at everything, but I'm beginning to realize that being good at everything does not make you any better. It kills me that I can't write the papers I need to for my classes. I want to write them and be done with them. I don't want to worry about them. Yet I still want the papers to be good and insitefully, but I don't really have time to focus on writing them. I want to get good grades in my classes, but ultimately it doesn't matter. I've just done so well in all my classes I don't want to ruin it now. But I know that life will go on.

Okay enough of that. Good news, my portfolio is coming along well. I printed out most of my work in black and white today. Just some minor changes and things should be good. I'm still suppose to work on a logo for a medical research company, but that I guess it the only thing I have left to do that will take some time.

I have to do sketches of candy wrappers. I also need to have a couple of names for the candies. They are like chocolate bars. One name I'm thinking of is "velvet", another is "options". Yeah I realize I just did a company called option control, but options could work cuz there will be lots of different flavors like almond, dark, white, caramel.

Okay well, it's getting late. I'm gonna go read and go to bed. Talk to ya'll laters.

This week I recommend

Reading - anything by David Sedaris - He is hilarious. I read his books Naked and the one with a naked barbie on the front.

Movie - "Saved" - you must be able to laugh at your religion or other religions - it's silly and fun.
"No, i'm not okay, I just crashed my van into Jesus."

blueberi posted at 11:59 PM